I'll Find Myself When I'm Dead

Season 3

March Plaidness Round One Recap

In Episode 2 of our special March Plaidness mini-season, we recap most of the first-round games (including David’s win with “Pepper”). Also: lots of Better Than Ezra imitations, Arlo gives a Gen Z take on grunge, Elena tells a story about meeting a member of Nirvana, Denry makes his pod debut, we discuss March Princeness, our wah-oh contest, a mailbag, Jurassic Prom, and more!

Links to some things we mention:

March Xness tournament site: www.marchxness.com

The March Plaidness Spotify playlist: https://t.co/1hu1IrEJOh?amp=1 

Cracker, “Big Dipper”: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8kxCe5CCx_0 

Cracker, “Another Song About the Rain”: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R8zuQH27Qjk 

Cracker, “Eurotrash Girl”: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=38Vun2LYnoY 

Nirvana, “Verse Chorus Verse”: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lgaTzaZbSG4 

Soul Asylum, “Sexual Healing”: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x-3cSPuy3nI 

Jamison Crabtree’s statistical analysis of Plaidness: https://twitter.com/jammy_jax 

Find out more at https://i-ll-find-myself-when-i-m-dead.pinecast.co

March Plaidness Round 2 Roboepisode

We ran into our first recording snafu and lost the entire episode, so we enlisted the help of robot actors to help us reconstruct it from memory. In this episode, we cover the Round 2 matchups for March Plaidness, the annual essay tournament. Enjoy, because we're probably gonna have to take this down once we get a cease & desist.

Go vote for Pepper here: http://marchxness.com/sweet16-alicevsbutthole/

Find out more at https://i-ll-find-myself-when-i-m-dead.pinecast.co

March Plaidness #4: Buttholes or Bust!

in our penultimate March Plaidness episode, we start with a confession before moving onto a discussion of G.K. Chesterton's problematicness; our plans for building a multimedia shitpost empire; our first foray into cinema; David's vision for a "Pepper" video; Arlo's production company; Dead Moon; Rusted Root; voting bots; Justin's book's release date; how wrong Elena was about Throwing Muses; whether Hootie would, in fact, have won; Local H kicking ass; lots of Plaidness essay shoutouts; Daylight Savings shenanigans; our picks for the rest of the tourney; Billy Joel vs. Huey Lewis; Justin makes an early plea for what song he wants to write about in March Faxness; and more!

March Plaidness: http://marchxness.com/elite8-buttholesvseverclear/

Link to "Pepper" video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y1Kei03inkk&t=25s

Justin's book: http://www.igpub.com/truman-capotes-in-cold-blood-bookmarked/

Excerpt of Justin's book in CrimeReads: https://crimereads.com/murder-tourism-in-middle-america-the-world-of-truman-capotes-in-cold-blood/

Find out more at https://i-ll-find-myself-when-i-m-dead.pinecast.co

March Plaidness Final

In our episode previewing the March Plaidness final, we discuss the two remaining essays/songs, the outcomes of recent games, some favorite fallen essays, and our post-Plaidness playlist. Also: Justin’s hot tub experience with Skrillex, pickup truck pools, our plans for a PodVan, a very 90s conversation about what’s cool, and more!

Links:

March Xness tournament site, with all the essays: www.marchxness.com

The post-March Plaidness Spotify playlist Elena made: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3oCUXkIdZQ8hGYw3mREmsO?si=VdHkUZxuRm-qTvGjs_YtFQ&nd=1

John Melillo's band, Algae & Tentacles: https://algaeandtentacles.bandcamp.com/

Find out more at https://i-ll-find-myself-when-i-m-dead.pinecast.co

S3E1 - Two Essays on Performance

In our first episode of Season 3, we discuss Zoom dance parties, Arlo's new theme song, our forays into magazine writing, the essays and essayistic things we've been reading/watching/etc. in 2021, and two specific essays: Sergio Troncoso's "Literature & Migration," and Hanif Abdurraqib's "I Would Like to Give Merry Clayton Her Roses."

Links:

The Sergio Troncoso essay we discuss: https://literalmagazine.com/a-third-culture-literature-and-migration/

Hanif Abdurraqib's new book, A Little Devil in America: https://www.penguinrandomhouse.com/books/592315/a-little-devil-in-america-by-hanif-abdurraqib/

Find out more at https://i-ll-find-myself-when-i-m-dead.pinecast.co

S3E2 - Didion on Writing

In this week’s episode, we discuss a new(ish) collection of Joan Didion’s previously uncollected essays, including a few about writing, two of which we picked to focus on. Also: Elena’s cat mishap, large-text editions, why we were all born in the wrong era for making money off of writing, a Didion-themed lightning round, and more!

Links to some things we mention:

Didion’s new book, Let Me Tell You What I Mean: https://www.penguinrandomhouse.ca/books/666038/let-me-tell-you-what-i-mean-by-joan-didion/9780593318485 Didion’s “Why I Write”: https://lithub.com/joan-didion-why-i-write/ 

We couldn’t find a free full online version of “Telling Stories,” but here’s an article with excerpts: https://www.brainpickings.org/2014/02/19/joan-didion-telling-stories/ 

Tracy Daugherty’s Didion biography: https://us.macmillan.com/books/9781250105943 

The audio galley of Justin’s new book (password: Capote): https://oregonstateuniversity-my.sharepoint.com/:u:/g/personal/stgermaj_oregonstate_edu/Eaet3zFf23lMvWKhwIGjUbgBYrPpC1gPKoYCc-M48GoPeA 

Find out more at https://i-ll-find-myself-when-i-m-dead.pinecast.co

S3E3 - Texas Review All-Essay Issue

This week, we discuss the Texas Review's All-Essay Issue from late 2020, including two specific essays by Wendy C. Ortiz and Vincent James. Also: a virgin fake-gin cocktail, Godzilla vs. Kong, terrible jobs we've had, times we've gotten fired, an alarming amount of Will Smith content, and more!

Links:

Texas Review All-Essay Issue: http://www.thetexasreview.org/issues/

Seedlip non-alcoholic gin: https://www.seedlipdrinks.com/en-us/shop/?gclid=CjwKCAjwqIiFBhAHEiwANg9szlLXeKgBYIgMBhVevVOy1k5ZvO7TBpKnn4q-54ihA48uesXAxa7L5hoCMlYQAvD_BwE

Godzilla vs. Kong: https://www.imdb.com/title/tt5034838/

Will Smith's 5-minute story on becoming the Fresh Prince: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y_WoOYybCro

Find out more at https://i-ll-find-myself-when-i-m-dead.pinecast.co

S3E4 - Old Person Essays

In this week's episode, we're talking about our generations. After Justin's mini-generation was dubbed Geriatric Millennials, we decided to read two examples from Donald Hall's book Essays After Eighty. Also: a Uhaul story, teaching 9/11 essays to Gen Z, a little baseball talk about the "yips," times we biffed it in public, an old-themed lightning round, and lots & lots of old-person complaining about the kids these days.

Essays After Eighty: https://bookshop.org/books/essays-after-eighty/9780544570313 

“Out the Window” isn’t available in full online, but here’s a brief excerpt from the New Yorker: https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2012/01/23/out-the-window 

“Dr. Dr. Dr. Dr. Dr. Dr. Dr. Dr. Dr. Dr.” (account required): https://www.narrativemagazine.com/issues/stories-week-2014-2015/story-week/dr-dr-dr-dr-dr-dr-dr-dr-dr-dr-donald-hall A Fresh Air interview with Hall about “Out the Window”: https://freshairarchive.org/segments/donald-hall-poets-view-out-window 

Rick Ankiel getting the yips: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KDZX525CSvw

Find out more at https://i-ll-find-myself-when-i-m-dead.pinecast.co

S3E5 - Interviews with Essayists

In this week's episode, we discuss two "The Art of ..." interviews from the Paris Review: one on the essay with Hilton Als, and another with Geoff Dyer about nonfiction in general. Also: our mutual love of Mrs. Dalloway, Elena’s study abroad experience, our rocky resumption of vaccinated socializing, Val Kilmer has a documentary, a couple of weird bird stories, one sad cat story, a lightning round about celebrities, lots of interviewing talk, and more!

Links:

“The Art of the Essay” with Hilton Als (subscription required): https://www.theparisreview.org/interviews/7178/the-art-of-the-essay-no-3-hilton-als

“The Art of Nonfiction” with Geoff Dyer (same): https://www.theparisreview.org/interviews/6282/the-art-of-nonfiction-no-6-geoff-dyer

Find out more at https://i-ll-find-myself-when-i-m-dead.pinecast.co

S3E6 - One Long Episode About Thirty Two Short Films About Glenn Gould

This week, we discuss the 1993 Canadian/French Canadian film “Thirty Two Short Films About Glenn Gould,” which we think is essayistic in many ways. Also: breath mints found in orifices, the thesis circle of life, writing too-long essays, apocalyptic media, Hamlet 2, “Canadian stakes,” lyric vs. narrative, accessibility, Graham Gano, and more!

Links: The full movie on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Iv7nPiZHKy4 

Gould’s radio documentary “The Idea of North”: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=szgnGV4hOKU 

Justin’s essay from Territory: http://themapisnot.com/issue-iii-justin-st-germain 

Find out more at https://i-ll-find-myself-when-i-m-dead.pinecast.co

2020